Diet Change & Cravings

I haven't been totally happy with the amount of weight I've been losing just by tracking calories and trying to make healthier choices.  I did some reading (as if I haven't read it all before) and decided that I should try a low carb, high fat diet again.  But the process of switching diets has been unpleasant.  I've had several days where I've just gone completely off the wagon (not to mention things like Mother's Day and my youngest's birthday).  I love hearing people talk about how great they feel when they cut sugar and/or gluten out of their diet, and part of me really wants that.. but a bigger part of me really, really wants sugar.  I know it's my addict, and that I shouldn't give in, but man, is it hard!  I find myself wondering, "Well, if other people can lose weight and not go low carb, then I should be able to, too."  Maybe I can, maybe it would be fine and I'd just lose a little more slowly.  But I hate being this 'dependent' on anything, I hate the hold sugar has on me.  I hate it, and I love it, and ugh!

I'm sitting here, with work to do and kids to tend to, and all I can think about is a Nutella sandwich.  I already tapped on the craving once, and that did help a bit, for a few minutes.  But it's back, I obviously wasn't very specific in my tapping.  I'm going to give it a few more rounds and hope that I'll be okay with just water.  But dinner feels a long way off.

Check-In

Progress with weight loss is going a little slower than I'd hoped, but maybe that's not a bad thing.  I'm down to 288.2 lbs today.  I started at 312 back in January, so not too bad I guess.  I'm being forgiving with food, which is both good and bad.  The good is that I don't feel like I screwed up and need to just give up if I end up having something less than healthy - making diet changes the way I have been has let me focus on the bigger picture than worrying about every bite that I take, which keeps me making slow progress.  But the bad part is that it is slow progress.. very slow.

Warmer weather means I've been a little more active than usual, going to the parks and whatnot with the kids.  But I know that making a concerted effort to exercise would really help, and I keep promising myself I'll do it, only to be too tired.  And yes, I do know that exercising will help increase my energy levels.. and somehow I still can't bring myself to do it.  Maybe I should tap on my reluctance to exercise.

Emotional Freedom Technique

If you're following my progress on My Fitness Pal, you noticed I took a few days off.  I wish I hadn't slipped, but I did, and now it's time to move on.  I had a pretty good day today, though lunch could have been better.  What I did do to take care of myself was some tapping.  Emotional Freedom Technique, EFT, tapping.. whatever we call it, I find it very helpful in trying to lose weight.  I use it in all areas of my life, and even my kids use it successfully, but I'm most excited with how it works for weight loss.  Here are the set-ups I used today:

Even though I ate compulsively for a few days, I completely love and accept myself.

Even though I feel bad about having a slip, I completely love and accept myself.

Even though I had a slip, I can choose to start anew.

Even though I am a food addict, I completely love and accept myself.

As usual, it really improved my mood and outlook, and I'm feeling pretty good now!  I'm going to read some of the stories from EFT for Weight Loss later - always good inspiration.